Tag: Sophia Ruthann

My first day of being Sophia Ruthann’s Grandma was filled with mixed emotions. The day started super, super early, it began with a tremendous amount of anticipation.

Then, excitement grew from the depths of my soul and joy filled my heart. I was so elated bursting with excitement and happiness that the moment had finally arrived when Sophia graced us with her presence.

And by the end of the day exhaustion set in and a whole nother set of emotions consumed me. I was drained of energy, extremely tired, and filled with sadness. Sadness because I felt like I wasn’t needed and jealousy overwhelmed me. I felt like my daughter was depending on her coworker to assist with her every need and I was just in the way. Too exhausted to say anything, I kept silent and sat there watching and waiting for my turn to hold my precious new granddaughter.

Dealing (or rather not dealing) with 🖤 emotions, keeping everything hidden inside I’m absorbed with intense internal pain and jealousy, not understanding how I (my opinion only) could be sidelined and made to fell unimportant in the grand scheme of Sophia’s birth and life.

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