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Six Years Ago This Week, January 18th! Where Has the Time Gone?

*In Memory*
Doyce Eileen (Watson) Waters,
aka my mom

Six years ago January 18, I received some devastating news, yet expected news. I was at work when my manager called me into his office saying I had a phone call. [Mind you now, I do not normally receive calls while I’m working and especially not on a work phone.]

What news did I receive, you ask? The phone call was from my brother in Texas. He called to let me know our mom had passed during the early morning hours. Yes, that is devastating news to receive and even more so while you are working. Needless to say, my work day ended after that phone call. I had arrangements I needed to make. Arrangements for my daughter and myself to travel to Texas for her memorial service and help my brother with the arrangements. Most of her arrangements were already preplanned.

Notice I said in the beginning the news was expected, just not the when. Why was it expected, you may wonder or might not? You see, my mom was dying from cancer. The type of cancer doesn’t matter. By this time in her life she had had several different types of cancers. She had received the chemotherapy, the radiation, and whatever was decided by her doctors for her previous cancers. This time around she made the decision that she wasn’t going to go through all of those treatments again. She had previously watched how the treatments affected my dad when he received the treatments when he was diagnosed and treated for cancer. (As of December 31st, it has been 28 years since my dad passed from cancer.) After receiving her diagnosis of cancer this last time, I believe she was ready to join her husband, loved ones, and friends in heaven.

Her passing affected me even though we were not close in my adult life. I loved my mom, don’t doubt that and I know she loved me. However, I truly felt that she did not like me or anything about me. To me, (my opinion only) she favored my brother and his family over me and my family. Now if you asked him, he’d probably disagree with my opinion. That doesn’t matter, that’s how I felt.

When she passed in January of 2019, I had not seen my mother since 2010 when she along with my brother came out to watch my daughter graduate from high school. Even then, she only spent a few hours with my daughter and myself the whole time she was in the Carolinas. They stayed with my dad’s sister, we saw them the for an hour the Thursday before my daughter’s graduation, at her graduation, and then for an hour at her graduation/birthday party the Sunday after her graduation. To me, it felt like very little time. Especially since afterwords, she moved from her home in San Diego to Plano, Texas to be near my brother and his family. Back then, I felt hurt and probably resented that she was closer to my brother.

Nowadays, I think I should have reached out to her more instead of just living my life struggling to provide for my family. It is sad that we didn’t have the kind of relationship that I now wish we had. The saying is true, you never know what you have or could have had until it is gone. I still think of my mom at times. Especially this time of year and in October around her birthday.

I do not mean to sound frustrating, angry, or like I’m having a “pity party.” Sometimes, you just need to let go of things, pour your heart out, and try to remember the good times.

Here is a few photos of my mom …

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Monday Portrait

Also linking to Judy’s Numbers Game #57-178

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RDP: Friday – Thankful/SATURDAY — PUMPKIN

Out of Hardship

Comes Blessings

For the past few months, we have been in unrest. I live with my daughter and grandson whom I take care of while she works. Up until recently (like three months ago) her husband (who never liked my being there) was also in the home. He moved out leaving my daughter with a whole heap of debt and a rental amount she could not afford without his assistance. He really didn’t think he should contribute to the financial obligations before he moved out and definitely didn’t think so afterwards even though his name was also on the lease. this made it difficult for my daughter to find another place to live; one in which she would be able to afford. Thus, creating extreme hardship and high levels of stress and anxiety.

***A Pile of Pumpkins***
***Ready for Children’s Pickin’***

After much searching and reaching out to anyone and everyone she finally found another place for us to move to. Just one catch, the landlord was still working on the house, and she didn’t have the financial resources to move in immediately. Therefore, we had additional expenses of staying in a motel for a week until everything could be completed to satisfaction. during this transitional period my grandson was missing several days of kindergarten and speech class.

So, what do you think I did? Since we couldn’t provide transportation to his school, I took him to enjoy one of his favorite pastimes, hiking. Coleman and I went hiking three days in a row to his delight. In the mist of trials, it was a blessing to enjoy being out in nature spending quality time with him. Our motel for the week was a short distance from his favorite hiking place, Anne Springs Close Greenway. Therefore, where else would I take him but to the Greenway, of course. These Pumpkins were seen on our fourth day of hiking. They were situated at the Lake Haigler entrance to the Anne Springs Close Greenway. The Greenway also had other fun Fall/Autumn activities set up for the children to enjoy. During this week we visited three of the five entrances to the Greenway. Each entrance offers different trails and activities for visitors to utilize and enjoy.

I am extremely grateful for my daughter and her strength and persistence in searching and locating a place for us to live and feel at peace. Home is the nicest word in our vocabulary right now. We are all thankful for having a home to live in. Thankful to be out of the motel. Thankful to be out of turmoil. Thankful to be relieved of a heavy load of stress and worry. I know, all our troubles and worries should be laid in the hands of God, our Heavenly Father. It is difficult sometimes to lay everything at his feet and not continue to worry.

We (mostly me) still have a tremendous amount of unpacking to do but alas, it will all get done in due time. I am still processing the fact that we have a home to live in. Understanding that we are all safe and can relax and enjoy our home (it is a rental, but it is our home for now). Coleman has his own little room, with his own bed (he had been having to share mine). He has a fairly good size yard to play in and we don’t have to worry about him not having enough space to run and pay. This home is a blessing, and I am truly thankful for being allowed to share it with my daughter and grandson.

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Camera: Apple iPhone 14 Pro Max

Location: Pumpkins) Anne Springs Close Greenway; Fort Mill, South Carolina, USA; Home) Cramerton, North Carolina, USA

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Remembering …

Doyce Eileen (Watson) Waters

October 11, 1931 — January 18, 2019

Five years ago I received an expected yet saddening phone call from my brother. I was working when I received the call that my mother had passed.

My mom and I were not close after I became an adult and was on my own. I was felt she favored my brother and his family. I harbored ill feelings for the longest time towards my mother. I guess you could say I was jealous of the close relationship I felt she had with my brother and his family. I felt she spent much more time with his family and only gave me and my family a few minutes of her time. To me it seemed she cared more about them and even my dad’s sister’s family more than she cared about me.

Regardless of how I felt about her as an adult, she was still my mother. She is here any longer, I can’t let her know how I felt. I was never open with her about my thoughts and feelings. Sometimes I wish I had felt like I could have been open with her and closer. You can never get back the time lost with loved ones. Regrets can never be taken back once loved ones are no longer with us. I still think about my mom, especially on her birthday.

CHERISH EVERY MOMENT AND EVERY PERSON IN YOUR LIFE, BECAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN IT WILL BE THE LAST TIME YOU SEE SOMEONE.

quoteslife101.net

Cherish Your Loved Ones

Cherish your family each and every day Life is unbelievably unpredictable Enjoy the people in your life, Invest in forgiveness Stop wasting precious time And be thankful for what you have Cherish your loved ones. You never know when God will call them home.

— Rosie Bourget

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2024 Sunday Stills: Plant a #Tree — Watch the #Leaves Change

Plant a Tree

Let it Grow

Into the Trees

We Love to Go

“Trees exhale for us so that we can inhale them to stay alive. Can we ever forget that? Let us love trees with every breath we take until we perish.”
― Munia Khan

“When one plants a tree they plant themselves. Every root is an anchor, over which one rests with grateful interests, and becomes sufficiently calm to feel the joy of living.”
— John Muir

I feel right at home when I am walking through the forest of trees whether I am alone or out hiking with my grandson. Being in the woods has a calming effect on me. It is relaxing and uplifting at the same time; a time of reflection and communing with God, the Creator of all things on Earth and in Heaven. The Autumn hues of the leaves are beautiful and mesmerizing. Autumn is a great time for observing the changes in nature. I love to be out in the forest amongst the trees all year round. It is so much better than being cooped up in doors. Enjoy the views of the trees and nature I and my grandson love to roam and wander through on a regular period.

“In a forest of a hundred thousand trees, no two leaves are alike. And no two journeys along the same path are alike.”
— Paolo Coelho

“Together we can preserve the forest, securing this immense treasure for the future of all these our children.”
— Chico Mendes

Terri’s Sunday Stills-Leaves and Trees

All Quotes from One Tree Planted.

God Bless. Enjoy Nature. Have a walk amongst the Trees. Thank you for visiting and sharing your time and thoughts with me. I appreciate y’all very much.

2024 RDP’s: Thursday-Wall_Tuesday-Nostalgia!_Sunday-Want

When I think about Wall I don’t think about any ordinary wall. I think about the Vietnam Veterans Walls I have been fortunate to visit. When I have visited Vietnam Veterans Walls, I think about the sacrifices that men and women have made to ensure our freedoms. I think about the tremendous ultimate sacrifices made by too many. I think about the lifetime suffering our Vietnam Veterans endured due to the effects Agent Orange that were forced upon our soldiers during their service to the United States of America.

The above depicts the Veterans Wall in the Veterans Garden at Glencairn Gardens in Rock Hill, South Carolina. The Veterans Garden was created by the City of Rock Hill in partnership with the American Legion Post 34 and the Veterans of Foreign Wars Post 2889. It honors women and men from the past, present, and future who served in the United States armed forces.

I look back with Nostalgic whenever I reflect on the time I traveled to Jacksonville, North Carolina visiting sons. The time spent with my eldest sightseeing various sites in the area including the Vietnam Veterans Memorial at Lejeune Memorial Gardens.

It is dedicated to all men and women who served during the Vietnam War. The Vietnam Veterans Memorial stands as a recognition for the nearly ten million Veterans of the five branches of the Armed Forces who served active duty during the Vietnam era. This memorial remembers the 303,704 service members who were wounded in Vietnam, the many POW/MIAs who are still unaccounted for, and the 58,229 men and women who gave the ultimate sacrifice for our country.

Upon entering the Vietnam Veterans Memorial, you’ll encounter an entry wall with medallions and flags representing all branches of the military, a walkway and bridge with French design, and a glass wall etched with names of those MIA, POW or dead.

One Wall I truly Want to visit one day is the Memorial Wall which is apart of the Vietnam Veterans Memorial in Washington D. C.. The Vietnam Veterans Memorial is a U.S. National memorial in Washington D. C.. It honors service members of the U.S. armed forces who served in the Vietnam War. The two-acre site is dominated by two black granite walls engraved with the names of those service members who died or remain missing as a result of their service in Vietnam and South East Asia during the war.

The United States fully entered the Vietnam War on March 8, 1965 when 3,500 United States Marines came ashore at Da Nang as the first wave of U.S. combat troops into South Vietnam. The U. S. had already been in Vietnam with 25,000 U.S. military advisers at that time period. The United States involvement in the War lasted until the fall of Saigon on April 30, 1975. The last combat units left Vietnam in 1973. However, it took years to bring home those who had died during the conflict and those who were held in prison camps (POW’s) or listed as Missing in Action (MIA).

Why is the Vietnam War Memorial Wall so important to me? Even though I did not loose family in Vietnam, I did have family members who served during the Vietnam War (Conflict). My brother enlisted in the United States Air Force in January 1973. My husband and both his brothers served during this time period. I have many friends who were drafted or enlisted in the early 1970’s. My husband & many of my friends were on the ground during the height of the conflict in Vietnam Nam. Quite a number have or are still affected by the results of the spraying of Agent Orange over the area. Many have had lasting PTSD, as others in other wars have also suffered. Our Vietnam Veterans were not given a welcome home as in previous wars or actually any welcome home except from their families. This was a war very real and personal in my growing up years and one I will always remember. If anyone reads this who served during the Vietnam Nam War era, Welcome Home!

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Grateful, Thankful, Blessed

I am so very thankful, incredibly grateful, and unbelievably blessed. Hurricane Helene has passed by causing tremendous havoc and damage to surrounding areas within two hours or less from our current location. It saddens me to see the many online postings of the damage and destruction caused by Hurricane Helene.

Even though Hurricane Helene was downgraded to a post-tropical cyclone while it continued moving northward after landing in Florida, the National Hurricane Center called it’s effects as “catastrophic, historic flooding.” The “catastrophic historic flooding coverage occurred over parts of the southern Appalachians. The flooding within my surrounding communities is devastating affecting many friends and families across the areas.

It saddens me to hear about the deaths and injuries caused by Hurricane Helene. Last count I read was approximately 44 deaths have been reported across the Southeast as a result of this storm. In my opinion, even one death is too many. I do know that God is in control and everything is going to be fine.

We were just a small group of the greater than 3.8 million Americans which had the unfortunate experience of dealing without power for several hours all across Florida, Georgia, South Carolina, North Carolina, Tennessee, Virginia, West Virginia, Kentucky, Ohio and Illinois.

Our local dams are overflowing, many streets have been flooded, others have collapsed leaving thousands stranded and unable to return to their homes or jobs until alternative routes can be provided or roads can become assessable once again.

I am very thankful our immediate area had minimal flooding and damage. I am incredibly grateful we were not without power for more than ten hours yesterday. I am unbelievably and abundantly blessed to have a Heavenly Father who watches over us and understands our needs, our anxieties, and our sorrows before we even acknowledge them ourselves.

I am sharing photos from public websites showing the flooding and damage to surrounding areas within a short distance from us.

***Before/After standing on I-40,***
***looking down at US 74***
***with the Blue Ridge Parkway bridge in the distance.***
***Asheville, NC. -Matthew***

Asheville, North Carolina

Chimney Rock, North Carolina

Boone and Blowing Rock, North Carolina

“I have a lot to be thankful for. I am healthy, happy, and I am loved.”
~ Reba McEntire

God Bless. Stay Safe. Thank you for sharing your time and thoughts with me. I appreciate y’all very much.

2024 Wordless Wednesday: 08.21 —

New Mexico

Hugh’s Wordless Wednesday

Throwback Thursday

Camera: Minolta XG-7 35 mm

Location: Entrance to Carlsbad Caverns; Carlsbad, New Mexico, USA

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Coleman’s Firsts ….

… First Day of School

… First Day of Kindergarten

… First Day Wearing New Backpack

… First Day Walking to School

… First Day for Many New & Exciting Experiences

Coleman’s
First Day of School
First Day of Kindergarten

Coleman’s Excited … Grandma’s jittery.

I do not recall being this jittery when my children went to their first days of school. How is it so different now than then? Do I worry too much? Am I more protective of my grandson than I was with my own children? Definitely things to ponder and pray about.,

The First Day of School

I’ve got a brand-new lunchbox. My shoes are shiny clean. I’ve got a cool, new bookbag And a pencil box that’s green.
But I don’t know my teacher, Or where my desk will be. I don’t know if I’ll like the kids, Or if they’ll play with me.
I peek inside my classroom. I stand there for a while. My teacher’s tall and kind of loud, But has a great big smile.
And, best of all, she’s got my Favorite book upon the shelf! I kiss my ~~mother~~ Grandma at the door And walk in by myself.
by Ruth Donnelly
http://www.superteacherworksheets.com

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Remembering My Dad —- 05.24

Happy Birthday Dad!

Nornal Hule Waters

May 24, 1929 – December 31, 1996

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Remembering my dad through the years (in no particular order), the closeness we had, the good times we enjoyed, the one on one time we spent together, and wishing he good have watched my children grow into adulthood and met my grandchildren. I miss him still to this day. Happy Birthday in Heaven Dad!

God Bless. Have a terrific day. Thinking of y’all. Speedy recovery Cee! Thank you for sharing your time and thoughts with me. I appreciate y’all very much.

2024 LAPC #292: People Here, There and Everywhere —

Antique Photos of Family & Their Vehicles

Maternal Great Grandfather
& Great Uncle
Riding in the 2-Seat
***Horse-Drawn Carriage***

***Family Members***
***with early Work Trucks***

***From Left to Right:***
***Doyce Eileen Watson, Harvey Martin Watson, Jerry Alexander Watson (in My Maternal Grandfather’s Arms)***
***Marvin Houston Watson***
***Beside the Family Car***

***Great Aunt Flora Alice (My Grandfather’s Sister) & Husband*** ***with their Car***

I’m grateful for the treasure of memorable photos I have in my possession from my family and ancestors. What are you thankful for this Lent season?

Lens-Artists Challenge #292: People Here, There and Everywhere

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Throwback Thursday

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How Often Do You Get Your Haircut or Trimmed?

I do not get mine done very frequently. The last time I took myself anywhere to get anything done to my hair was in before 2014. When I did go I often went to my cousin to get a haircut, a perm or sometimes even dying my hair. There was no better beautician in my book other than my cousin, Carol. [Actually she was my first cousin once removed’s wife, but why get technical.]

Why talk about haircuts anyway?

Hair Health —-
- It is healthy to get your hair, at least, trimmed periodically to remove damaged ends, prevent split ends, and help with hair breakage.
Hair Growth —-
- Haircuts can promote hair growth and make your hair look healthier and fuller.
Scalp Health —-
- Haircuts can improve scalp circulation, which stimulates healthier hair growth. They can also minimize dandruff and dry scalp.
Styling —-
- Haircuts cuts can maintain a well-groomed appearance and allow for versatility in styling.
Self-Care —-
- Haircuts can be a form of self-care. Visits to hair salons can be a way to take a break from your normal routine and relieve daily stress and anxieties. It can also help you feel better and more confident, more free; like the weight just sort of rolled off your shoulders.

You might be wondering why I chose to discuss haircuts. This week I decided it was long overdue for me to get my hair, at least trimmed if not a complete haircut. Lately, my hair has been tangling up quite a bit, especially if I slide on brushing daily or twice a day. It had gotten so long that when I would lend over to clean my hair would fall into whatever I was cleaning. (Not a good thing if it is the commode one is cleaning.) Yuck.

My grandson, Coleman enjoys getting his haircut. When his hair starts hanging down in his face, he’ll hold his hair up and make cutting gestures with his fingers.

So, between yesterday and this afternoon noon, he and I both got our haircuts taken care of. I went and had my haircut done yesterday. It is a little shorter than I anticipated, but it will grow and is a lot lighter on my head. No more hair falling into places we prefer them not to be.

Top: My Before Photo
Bottom: My After Photo

This afternoon while running errands, I gave in and we took Coleman to “his barber” in “his barbershop” for his haircut. Yes, he does have a favorite barber and he’ll tell you how to get to “his” barbershop. He was so ecstatic to be getting his haircut. He was smiling from ear to ear during the whole haircut.

Top & Left: Coleman’s hair being cut
Bottom Right: His Before Photo

God Bless. Treat yourself to a haircut, make-over, or whatever to help yourself look and feel better. Thank you for sharing your time and thoughts with us. I appreciate y’all very much.

2023 CFFC: Makes You Laugh or Smile

What or who makes me laugh? The answer to that is easy to answer. It is hands down, my grandson, Coleman. He has been my joy and inspiration since he came into my world four years ago. I have had the privilege of watching him grow and develop into an awesome little boy. Yes, at times he annoys and frustrates me when he doesn’t listen or follow given instructions, but then he’ll want a hug and says, “I love you”! You have to listen carefully; he talks with a lisp, so it is sometimes difficult to understand what he is saying. Even though some people have a difficult time, most of the time I can understand him and when he tells me he loves me; it brings a smile to my face and joy to my heart.

The joys and laughter Coleman brings throughout his life …

**And sometimes Lau*gh.***
***2021 v. 2023***

Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge – Makes You Laugh or Smile

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Bloganuary #6: Why do you write?

There are many different reasons people may choose to write. It could be anything from the desire to communicate with others to creating something beautiful that they hope will interest others or even just as a release to get something off their mind and enable to reflect with understanding.

Why do I write?:

Writing ✍️ is a necessary tool for communication. For me, it is easy to communicate through words put down on “paper.” I used to feel compelled to write in a journal my thoughts, emotions, and feelings regarding the day or situation. I am more comfortable expressing myself in writing than through verbal communication.

Why? I think 🤔, I feel, and I ponder on my life and the circumstances and situations which have occurred. It is hard for me to come up with the right words to express my thoughts instantaneously. Henceforth, I write.

I write letters, yes, actual letters not emails. I write notes in cards to let someone know I am thinking about them and I care. For me, emails are more impersonal than an genuine letter written down in my own handwriting. It takes more time and effort but the thoughtfulness is relaxed, friendly, and extremely natural & rewarding.

Nowadays, I use my smartphone or my laptop 💻 to write and express my ideas, thoughts, and feelings. Sometimes I write as thoughts appear in my mind, other times I wait until I am absolutely alone. When I am alone in the quiet of the evening, my brain functions more clearly and I am better able to concentrate and communicate in written words the thoughts, and feelings I desperately desire to convey.

I often use photos to help convey my thoughts and activities. How do you express yourself? Why do you write?

Bloganuary

God Bless. Thank you for listening. I appreciate y’all.

Moving: Unplanned, but necessary …. Is Emotional

Moving refers to a change in residence. Moving is moving whether moving next door, across town, or across the country. Moving can be an extremely emotional experience. There is so much that goes through one’s mind when you think about moving. It is one thing if you plan on your own accord to move. In that instance, you plan ahead, know where you’re going and make realistic plans accordingly. However, when you’re told by your landlord your lease is not being renewed and you have thirty days to find a place and move, that brings about a whole different set of emotions.

Moving can be challenging and also frustrating. Frustrating in looking, hunting, searching, trying to locate a place to move. It can be difficult to locate a place to move to when you know way in advance that you’ll be moving, but on short notice it can become very stressful and irritating. It might make you feel like screaming, especially when you’re so frustrated by not finding a place right away knowing you do not have much time.

Tips for solving and overcoming common challenges when moving. Moving can be exciting but also stressful. Your emotions are all over the place. ( I know mine are right now.) How we overcome tour challenges matters tremendously. Let’s take a deep look on what can be done to make a move a little bit less frustrating.

Having Too Many Belongings – Packing is a necessary component of moving it accomplishing it can become difficult. It may be hard to decide what you need to keep and take with you and what you need to discard by giving away or trashing. Solution: Too many belongings, reduce them. Keep only what you really really need and get rid of things you don’t use much anyway.
A Sudden and Unplanned Move – Failing to plan ahead May cause problems later. Too little time means you probably won’t be able to be organized. Packing and unpacking may not go as smoothly as you’d hoped. Solution: Start planning as soon as possible. Prepare a timetable and checklist for when things need to be done.
Lost or Damaged Items – Remember to use special packaging for items like tv’s, mirrors, dishes, and lamps. Solution: Special packaging and handling helps to prevent damage when moving. Keep an organized inventory system, label boxes by contents.
Not Enough Packing Material – Often we are unsure of how many boxes and how much packaging materials are necessary for the number of items you’d be moving. Solution: Moving companies, regardless of whether you’re moving yourself or using movers, are happy to advice you on the correct number of packing materials you’ll need.

What you need to do to prepare for your move:

Before or while you are packing your belongings into boxes take inventory of everything you have and everything you need for your move.
Invest in packing supplies. Those supplies should include boxes 📦, bubble wrap, packing tape, and markers for labeling the boxes 📦.
Create piles or boxes for “to throw away,” “to donate,” and “to sell.”
Make a trip to the local donation center such as Goodwill and to the landfill or dump station.

Whenever and wherever you plan on moving be sure to use a checklist to ensure you have everything you need and do not leave anything behind. If you don’t use a checklist you might forget something and then you might become agitated and emotionally frustrated with yourself, with your situation, or with those trying to help you with your move.

God Bless. Stay safe. And if you plan on moving, be sure to plan ahead and use checklists. Thank you! I appreciate y’all.

Rambling on ….. ranting ….. sometimes you just need to vent hoping someone understands.

I don’t get out much since the pandemic began, not sure 🤔 who is safe to be around. My eye sight is not as good as it used to be, therefore I do not drive and go places much. Sometimes I am so lonely I could cry. Maybe it’s of my own making, maybe it’s an inner turmoil, and maybe it’s a feeling of being unloved.

It doesn’t matter what you call it, feelings are real. People, especially family, don’t seem to understand. They are too wrapped up in themselves and their phones to even notice.

I was able to borrow my daughter’s car yesterday, so I went for a drive. I checked my mailbox 📫, mostly junk, but it needed cleared out. Later I went and visited a friend I hadn’t seen in person for two years. It felt good.

My daughter texted and asked if I was okay since I was in the same area for a couple hours. I hadn’t realized I was on a time limit with her car. Who knew? Not me.

I said to her I was visiting a friend. She replied “Huh, a friend????” That was like a slap in my face, as if she didn’t think I had any friends. True most of my friends I only communicate with online nowadays, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have any friends at all. It makes me sad that she thinks I have no one, not a single friend.

After her text, I left my friend’s home and headed back “home”. I say “home” in quotation marks because I get reminded all the time it is not my home. I’ve just been staying there for the past two years taking care of my grandson, but I can’t call it home according to them.

After all that, I arrived back to find out she wasn’t even home. So then I wonder why was she so concerned about his long I was gone. After all she said I could use her car. I think she thought I would only check my mail & come straight back. I guess I surprised her when I didn’t.

Today, I’m sitting all alone in room. She hasn’t checked on me, texted me, or anything. At times like this it seems, to me, I don’t exist to her.

Enough ranting… I know God loves me and cares for me. I’ll be alright.

God bless. Be a friend. Let people know you care about them. Show others love and kindness.

Loneliness: Good or Bad? Feel lonely when you’re not alone?

People think being alone makes you
lonely, but I don’t think that’s true.
Being surrounded by the wrong people
is the loneliest thing in the world.
— Kim Culbertson
©️Lifehack

Alone is having no one else around, being by yourself. Lonely describes a feeling of sadness from isolation or abandonment. One can be alone without feeling lonely. And one could be surrounded by people and yet feel very lonely.

Loneliness does not come
from being alone,
but from being surrounded by people
who can’t understand you. A deep feeling of isolation comes
when you realize that even the person
standing right next to you
is unreachable.

Being alone
does not mean you are lonely,
and being lonely does not mean
you are alone.

Have you ever felt lonely even though you were surrounded by others? Sometimes you can be around family or friends and still feel like you are all alone. You feel empty inside, a feeling of being invisible, being ignored, and or feeling unloved and like no one cares.

No I may not be
physically alone….
But mentally there
is no one in sight….
—— The Minds Journal

Loneliness can be normal, and can be an indicating factor of an underlying disease when feelings become extremely all-consuming and interfere with your daily life. Loneliness is NO fun. It is apparently bad for you. People who are lonely may be a greater risk for some types of inflammatory diseases.

Although loneliness is not considered a mental illness in and of itself, it is, however, strongly linked to mental health issues.

**Loneliness** is not just a
feeling of being alone, it’s
***fear, depression, inferiority***,
it’s a collection of ***negative***
***emotions*** building up a
massive wall around you. —— Therightmessages.com

What are some ways to deal with your feelings of loneliness?

Face your feelings of loneliness….don’t run away from your feelings….
Don’t judge yourself for feeling lonely….no time for a pity party….
Figure out how much connection you need and work towards it….Don’t forget you need others….
Dismiss your belief that no one understands you….There’s nothing wrong with your feelings….if necessary find someone you can talk to….
Reconnect with your original self….connect with love ❤️…..God is love….

Does the Bible say anything about loneliness, feeling alone?

“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you, he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
Deuteronomy 31:6 NIV (New International Version)

“Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted.”
Psalm 25:16 NIV

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
Isaiah 41:10 NIV

A Prayer for Loneliness:

“Heavenly Father, I need your comfort as I am feeling lonely. Help me to remember that you see me even when others don’t. Be with me through this trial I am going through. Help me understand that I am going through this for a reason and that you will see me through this; That I can conquer this because you are with me.”

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God bless. Remember even when you feel lonely, you are never alone. God is with you always. God loves you.

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Primary Emotion: Which are you feeling right now?

Before the pandemic began, I felt happy. Since lockdowns in 2020, I have felt a mixture of emotions. I feel Fear, Confusion, and anger.

It is difficult during this time period to only discuss one feeling, one emotion. Especially when I am so mixed up and confused.

I am confused about the Coronavirus, CDC guidelines change frequently, it seems. Wear masks, okay not to wear masks. Stay six feet apart, social distancing is mandatory. We changed our minds, you don’t have to stay home. You can go out in group, Covid-19 is under control. While everything was supposed to be shut down, kids were still allowed to meet in groups and play sports ⚽️ or other activities. I’m confused regarding how that was safe when we were mandated to social distance and stay six feet apart. How is it safe for some and not for others to meet in groups?

Even when mandates were in place, some people ignored them. Nursing homes were locked down, but residents still died from Covid-19. People were told they couldn’t visit the loved ones not even when they were dying. The guidelines send us mixed signals, so I’m confused, frustrated, and angry.

I’m fearful the Coronavirus will affect my immediate family. I’m fearful that working family members will bring it home. I’m fearful that everything they touch or breathe on will be contaminated with the virus 🦠. Should I be? At this point I don’t really know. I’ve had older relatives die from Covid. I’ve had other relatives and friends that have had it. Some with severe symptoms and some with only mild symptoms. I am fearful about catching it, about how I would be affected by it. I’m fearful that my two year old grandson will come down with it from his parents possibly bringing it into the home. Should I not be afraid?

I continually see people going about the lives as if the coronavirus never happened, didn’t exist. It does exist and people are still dying from it. Maybe not as many as in the beginning, but they still are. The coronavirus has not been eliminated. It will be around fir a long time yet.

What should I be doing to manage my emotions? There are many things I might could use. The following is a small list of things I could or maybe should be doing.

Label the Emotion
Engage in a healthy coping skill
Fake it till I make it
See a therapist
Let myself feel whatever it may be

The Bible has several things to say regarding turning our concerns over to God. Let God know how you feel, tell God what I’m feeling. Sometimes I keep things bottled up inside, and talking to God falls by the wayside. I need to trust Him more and turn my fears, my worries, my emotions over to God. I need to believe He’ll take care of everything, that He is in control. Not me.

“Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be known unto God.
And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4: 6-7 KJV

“Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.”
Psalm 55:22 KJV

“Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.”
1 Peter 5:7 KJV

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”
Proverbs 3:5-6 ESV

Emotions are real. Your friends and family may not understand why you feel the why you do. That doesn’t matter as much as the fact that God understands. He cares about every aspect of your/my life. I need to remember that more, like every day.

God bless. Turn your emotions, your fears, your concerns over to God. He can manage them better than we can. Stay safe. I appreciate y’all.

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